I've been in a good, healthy mood this past week, and unfortunately being so upbeat and feeling so good made it VERY apparent that I have a mental problem. When I was miserable and spent all my time moping around and eating like shit, I just seemed to be in a constant state of ... well, misery. And I accepted it. But now I'm treating myself better, I'm happier, and then that misery hits me like a TRAIN for no apparent reason. It doesn't feel natural and I hate it. I was dragged down hard yesterday and even picked a fight with Kait.

I'm getting control of a lot of things now. It kills me that this isn't something I can control all on my own.